pc catchall | homophonic | netzach

[metacognition]

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      OBLOMOV.      

oblomov.
netzach.

❝ Now or never! 'To be or not to be!'"—Oblomov raised himself from his chair a little, but failing to find his slippers with his feet at once, sat down again. ❞

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[abstractart]

Nothing. I didn't really know how to put it, that's all.

[he's opted not to try to word what he's thinking, in case, because he knows when he probably shouldn't, or to ask if it's actually the same thing. this is also why philosophy is not his floor-- but he gets the sense that it touches nerves for them both in very different ways.

pigs apparently sense impending awkward silence on his end, though, because it's averted by something of netzach's own.

the first thing he sees is this scene. the lowest point in netzach's life, he thinks, out of all those cycles-- the one where he gave up completely. one of the times he did? he isn't sure. everything blurs, in thousands of years of loops.

but this is the time where something manifested after that conversation, twisted his metal form into something reflecting his awful emotional state. there are warnings going off that he barely hears- WARNING: manifestation of qlipha detected due to sephirah meltdown. core suppression is required for continued functionality, manager.

he doesn't care about this, or about the sudden shared recollection of his old self. why should he? why does it matter? what's the point of trying to save anyone's life here in this hell, just to watch them die the next day? he can't take it anymore, seeing nothing but suffering and death. it's hopeless. he's hopeless.

he lets himself drift into unconsciousness, and he hopes he doesn't wake up again.

but he does. netzach doesn't remember what happened, while he was asleep; he only knows he's awake again, standing in the same place once more. standing with the exact person who put him into his own personal hell in the first place. there truly is no escape, is there...?

but maybe he doesn't need one, anymore. if he could be saved, then maybe this time, the manager will finally succeed.]